another drunk post...
dont worry people...this is gonna end soon...is it (my blog my rulz disclaimers :D)
u know why...coz school (read b school) is gonna end soon...am i senti...i dunno
should i be...i get senti for a number of reasons...i donot get senti for many seemingly senti reasons
friends close to me leave college...i dont get senti
i sit on my system...i visit that one orkut profle....i get senti
someone tells me...u willl get a beautiful girl as a girlfriend....its make no difference...why...beauty is not what makes a difference....that person has to be as strong as the two previous ladies in my life...both of whom were epitomes of strenght....she has to be as engaging in conversation as those two ladies...she has to be as interesting as those two ladies...she has to be as effervescent yet them...yet as ....kya word hai yaar...pata nahi...opposite of effervescent....as them
one of my good friends asked me...why havent u been able to get over ur past...why do u still say u r TRYIN to get over it
its because of benchmarking...
that...I guess...is not the right word...but the fact remains the women in my life have been so strong...so independent...so different...that i havent been able to find equivalents
n when i say...time holds not heals...it...to a large extent means...to get in terms with ur past...u look for equivalents...if not betterments...
n beleive me....I dont know if i was lucky or was it something i deserved...but i HAVE NOT been able to find equivalents....
yaar sach bol raha hoon....such strong women....how...
sometimes i think....me n them...kaise....they showed me what women are....they taught me to respect women for their strength....they showed me women are no worse if not better than men....they made me see the other side of the society....they showed me what India is....both of them...one thru a book...one thru her work...they sensitized me about india....
i can go on n on...i dont want to
when someone tells me...anurag...u will get a great girl in ur life....2 things...wat does "get" a great girl mean....n second....would that person match up to what i have lost....or rather what i have experienced....
havent found anyone matching up to that yet...
n that is where the problem lies :o)....there is always a comparison involved...when u r dying of heartburn (that is the word they use isnt it)...u r dying of potential lung cancer due to cigarettes u smoke...u r lying of liver damage because of the volumes of rum u consume...
i know its time i ended this post...its running pretty long...but i dont want to....its coz i am writing something i am grappling with....i cant sleep at nights...i think of 13th of july 2007...friday the 13th...scary day...such a beautiful day...i think of my last few days in blore....n i cant sleep...i just shut my eyes...n wait...rather hope...sleep plz oblige me
saala woh gaandu jisko bhagwaan bulate hai woh bhi help nahi karta
i am not an aetheist...but i am not a beleiver too...i dunno what i am...right now i am just drunk
kya mazak hai yaar....i am listening to songs now...they are blaring on my ears....its a circle...people call me n i "choose" to respond or not...i mail that one person...who always chooses not to respond...why...because of a difference in opinion on how it should end...
i dunot understand her point of view...she does not beleive my stand...what is the end result...those extra cigs which reduce the life span by those extra mins...those extra pegs which reduce the sensitiveness that much
friends say...saala dont treat ur body as a machine...ghanta bhan chod....i live in the company of such talented women....but no one...matches...them....no one....its not a comparison in any way...its just that....wat i value most...is not there....so will i find it...i dunno
they are one of a kind....n i guess me being the arsehole i am...am one of a kind...so would a match exist...i dunno...very difficult....so not hoping...not thinking...just getting numb....ma ka bhos**a
ghanta saala....band karo...i dont even know why i started writing this post....band kar chutiye...band kar
u know why...coz school (read b school) is gonna end soon...am i senti...i dunno
should i be...i get senti for a number of reasons...i donot get senti for many seemingly senti reasons
friends close to me leave college...i dont get senti
i sit on my system...i visit that one orkut profle....i get senti
someone tells me...u willl get a beautiful girl as a girlfriend....its make no difference...why...beauty is not what makes a difference....that person has to be as strong as the two previous ladies in my life...both of whom were epitomes of strenght....she has to be as engaging in conversation as those two ladies...she has to be as interesting as those two ladies...she has to be as effervescent yet them...yet as ....kya word hai yaar...pata nahi...opposite of effervescent....as them
one of my good friends asked me...why havent u been able to get over ur past...why do u still say u r TRYIN to get over it
its because of benchmarking...
that...I guess...is not the right word...but the fact remains the women in my life have been so strong...so independent...so different...that i havent been able to find equivalents
n when i say...time holds not heals...it...to a large extent means...to get in terms with ur past...u look for equivalents...if not betterments...
n beleive me....I dont know if i was lucky or was it something i deserved...but i HAVE NOT been able to find equivalents....
yaar sach bol raha hoon....such strong women....how...
sometimes i think....me n them...kaise....they showed me what women are....they taught me to respect women for their strength....they showed me women are no worse if not better than men....they made me see the other side of the society....they showed me what India is....both of them...one thru a book...one thru her work...they sensitized me about india....
i can go on n on...i dont want to
when someone tells me...anurag...u will get a great girl in ur life....2 things...wat does "get" a great girl mean....n second....would that person match up to what i have lost....or rather what i have experienced....
havent found anyone matching up to that yet...
n that is where the problem lies :o)....there is always a comparison involved...when u r dying of heartburn (that is the word they use isnt it)...u r dying of potential lung cancer due to cigarettes u smoke...u r lying of liver damage because of the volumes of rum u consume...
i know its time i ended this post...its running pretty long...but i dont want to....its coz i am writing something i am grappling with....i cant sleep at nights...i think of 13th of july 2007...friday the 13th...scary day...such a beautiful day...i think of my last few days in blore....n i cant sleep...i just shut my eyes...n wait...rather hope...sleep plz oblige me
saala woh gaandu jisko bhagwaan bulate hai woh bhi help nahi karta
i am not an aetheist...but i am not a beleiver too...i dunno what i am...right now i am just drunk
kya mazak hai yaar....i am listening to songs now...they are blaring on my ears....its a circle...people call me n i "choose" to respond or not...i mail that one person...who always chooses not to respond...why...because of a difference in opinion on how it should end...
i dunot understand her point of view...she does not beleive my stand...what is the end result...those extra cigs which reduce the life span by those extra mins...those extra pegs which reduce the sensitiveness that much
friends say...saala dont treat ur body as a machine...ghanta bhan chod....i live in the company of such talented women....but no one...matches...them....no one....its not a comparison in any way...its just that....wat i value most...is not there....so will i find it...i dunno
they are one of a kind....n i guess me being the arsehole i am...am one of a kind...so would a match exist...i dunno...very difficult....so not hoping...not thinking...just getting numb....ma ka bhos**a
ghanta saala....band karo...i dont even know why i started writing this post....band kar chutiye...band kar
posted by Anurag at
4:12 AM
19 Comments:
Hmmm hmmmmm All this happens just after our hour-long conversation. Complete "plate-change" of your senses :)
I think this post has as many dots in it as letters ;)
@murthy
ha ha ha ha...so u r saying ur triggered it eh?
n what does that observation have to do with the post...the dots n letters
Arre monkey...each person in your life is different..while you might want to find someone similar you can't find the same..Look for generic or general qualities you might want in the person..and get over it..one nights sleep and I got over it!
Anurag, let go of the past. I know you are looking for something...something that'll make you complete..but don't be in a hurry...
@tia
thanks for the advice
but
1. i am not in a hurry
2. i said some qualities which I value most...i am looking for them
of course people are different...but then i dont think "generic" qualities makes any sense...qualities are always specific
n one night's sleep n u got over it...awesome yaar...good for u
bout letting go of the past...i think a smiley is the best answer :D :D
I guess I was never in love with him..If it were real it would have haunted me...Anurag..I live in the past too...I live in regrets and what ifs...don't do the same..how about a hug (platonic) instead of a smiley? *smiles*
Anyway here's one balu hug - *HUG* :)
dont do it again...somethings are d best enjoyed the first time!!
i read smewhere...everyone has atleast 500 matches in d world! so u have 498 more to go....i hope u find em soon! :)
tc pal!
@tia
:o)
@gunj
disagree...i do it as many times as i want... :o)
498 is too huge a number yaar...damn whoever came out with that conclusion
i jus said so coz i really loved d 1st drunken post,,n i dint wanna loose dat excellent thing attatchd to it!!
@gunj
cool hai re... :o)
appreciate the compliment :o)
girls!!! they r like oxymorons... u can't live without them 'n at the same time u can live without them also...
'n ohh yeah cheers!
Haven't u heard the CorpFin funda ? - 90% of the girls use dating phase to judge your NPV :) .. And we spend time searching for the remaining 10% :)
*hugs* take care.
I dont like this drunken writing. :-( makes me sad.
ek to inna peena chhod!
don't think so much...
p.s. when u write in the beginning that u are drunk and are writing this...my head starts spinning automatically! :-P
Cheers, buddy
:|
@sanjiv
he he...maybe...MAYBE u r right :D
@ajith
didnt understnd the context :D
@arpz
:o) thnks
n dont be sad...sabki apni jung hoti hai re :o)
@anjuli
peeta hoon isliye to jeeta hoon :D
ha ha...last few days of col re..uske baad to peena waise bhi kam ho jayega :o)
n the fact that ur head starts spinning means u shld start drinking...n drink more :D
@ankit
thanks re...abhi blore mein peete hai saath saath :D
meri dua, aap apni jung main vijeeta ubharein :)
Interesting post. :)
Do you wonder sometimes, whether you are holding onto an illusion?
Everyone shows a weak side eventually. Would you love them less when they do?
@sonali
holding onto an illusion? didnt understand that
n yes..everyone has weaknesses...n no...my feelings didnt change when the weaknesses show up
I mean: That maybe we like people for what we think we want rather than what we need?
Just thinking out loud and can apply to anyone.
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