Baggage
When its 3:30 AM in the morning, and u arent feeling like doing anything.
U arent feeling sleepy. U arent feeling like watching a movie.
U arent feeling like reading the newspaper.
U arent feeling like smiling on thinking bout the frivolous teasing that ur friends shower on u. Infact u hardly feel like smiling on that, since it touches that one area in ur life which u wouldnt really be able to change.
And the worst part is, u arent feeling like cleaning up ur mind once a flurry of thoughts come in, thoughts that on any other day u would dismiss on the excuse of work, or having other things to do, thoughts that a few months ago elicited a physical response wherein u had to shake ur head to push them out, thoughts that nowadays hardly come by, coz u seem to have gotten over them and moved on.
People do move on, from experiences, from people, from thoughts, from life lived...
But as they move on, do they leave everything behind...
I guess not...there is some baggage which all of us carry with us...our fears, our happiness, our beleifs, our insecurities, happy memories...sad ones, goals acheived, targets missed
But then, doesnt some of this baggage feel too heavy on u sometimes...so heavy, that u feel you could shout out loud and let it flow out of ur system, but u wont, coz shouting wont come naturally to u
...So heavy, that u feel that ok...let me sit down n clean it out of my system, in whatever way, tears, alcohols, cigarettes, running like hell, whatever way possible
but then u r a person who just doesnt cry, alcohol does not have its affect, the best friends of ur life whom u might have shared something with are far away, cigs just burn ur lungs, n running just tires u out...
but the baggage still remains...heavy as always...
U arent feeling sleepy. U arent feeling like watching a movie.
U arent feeling like reading the newspaper.
U arent feeling like smiling on thinking bout the frivolous teasing that ur friends shower on u. Infact u hardly feel like smiling on that, since it touches that one area in ur life which u wouldnt really be able to change.
And the worst part is, u arent feeling like cleaning up ur mind once a flurry of thoughts come in, thoughts that on any other day u would dismiss on the excuse of work, or having other things to do, thoughts that a few months ago elicited a physical response wherein u had to shake ur head to push them out, thoughts that nowadays hardly come by, coz u seem to have gotten over them and moved on.
People do move on, from experiences, from people, from thoughts, from life lived...
But as they move on, do they leave everything behind...
I guess not...there is some baggage which all of us carry with us...our fears, our happiness, our beleifs, our insecurities, happy memories...sad ones, goals acheived, targets missed
But then, doesnt some of this baggage feel too heavy on u sometimes...so heavy, that u feel you could shout out loud and let it flow out of ur system, but u wont, coz shouting wont come naturally to u
...So heavy, that u feel that ok...let me sit down n clean it out of my system, in whatever way, tears, alcohols, cigarettes, running like hell, whatever way possible
but then u r a person who just doesnt cry, alcohol does not have its affect, the best friends of ur life whom u might have shared something with are far away, cigs just burn ur lungs, n running just tires u out...
but the baggage still remains...heavy as always...
Labels: Feelings, me n myself
posted by Anurag at
5:45 PM
14 Comments:
ah.. course ending sentiments ?
@ajith
ha ha ha ha...i never got senti on leaving NIT yaar...this is still IIM... :D
@anurag - you never got senti ?? Who are you trying to kid man ? Shyamal, Saxena and I had to drag you out of the MC when you were sitting there on the last day emptying your tear glands and telling the whole world how much you were you going to miss NITC
@vinay
that would be after getting drunk...not in my senses :D :D
actually i dont remember that
you're right....the baggage remains....even though the suitcase turns to just a carrybag....profound huh? :)
:) , why don't you just light a cracker in the dorm corridor? :p
@zee
i actually laughed at the profound statement :D :D...u r a TRUE HR professional i must say :D
@sanjiv
how would that help...burning it in someone else's room n hearing the yelps would be helpful though :P :P
@zee
or are u into marketing???? :P :P
Hey! Senti baggages! Interesting... ;)
@ships
baggage to baggage hota hai...its usually heavy...senti baggage nahi suna tha :P
and that spoils the idea of "flying lite.."
:D
take care!
@patchez
wonder why everyone takes travelling as flying...esp with the air travel rates going higher by the day... :P
i thinking biking would be better...but that would have to wait till i get meself a bike :o)
thanks for visiting
Very well written (rathered typed ;) ..) ..
@dhrushti
thank u thankooo
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